Well, relatively speaking at least - funny how one adapts to change. I saw the neurosurgeon today, and had a great meeting. I got home a bit late to pick Kirstin up, then discovered the car had a flat, so had to run (with the wheelchair) to the tram. We arrived at the hospital a few minutes late, but covered in sweat. At least, I was.
Two and a half hours later, our turn to see the doctor arrived. It became quickly apparent that he possessed all the things you'd like to have in a surgeon but didn't really expect - humility, optimism coupled with reality checks, and a sense of humour. Oh, and no awareness of either how late he was running, nor how long he was taking to make sure you were happy.
And so we came out happy. I've decided to have the operation in Grenoble, and the date that has been provisionally set for me is December 13th (Tuesday). I'll go into hospital the day before and after the operation will be in Grenoble for a few days, then south to Briancon (in the high Alps) for the intensive rehabilitation program.
I'd been resigning myself to the trans-labyrinthine approach, which requires the destruction of the hearing apparatus and the balance system (on the right side) since I'd heard a number of confirmations of the necessity of that for a tumour of this size (28mm, almost into the classical grade 5 category) but the neurosurgeon said that he felt my hearing was sufficiently good still that it would be worth attempting a retro-sigmoid approach that may save about 30%. Although ENT surgeons don't think this is worth it, because this does not leave sufficient hearing for speech discrimination, it does leave something to help you locate sounds (stereophony) and also hear 'alert' noises - a car coming towards you, someone shouting, etc. He will discuss this with the ENT team, and decide on what is best together.
Interestingly, the same incision in the skin is used for both: it is the entry through the bone with changes. So he envisages trying the retro-sigmoid first, but if it becomes apparent that it will not work, then simply drilling a new hole to do the trans-lab.
He expects I'll be home for Christmas!
Of course, the whole problem of
where will home be is still weighing on me slightly. Life insurance to satisfy the mortgage lenders is still proving to be elusive, and I'm starting to run out of options. We'll see how things go in the next few days, when I should be receiving some calls to discuss.
So, all in all, I feel much better tonight than I have for a few days (where my sister and Kirstin, particularly, have had to deal with a rather surly companion). I got a good vibe from the surgeon (and how better would you assess a medical expert when you are not one?), I got a date, and a better than expected prospective outcome after surgery.
Thanks for all your letters and emails - they've been really encouraging.